2005-01-04
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i've been spending so much time at the hospital. he has so much wrong with him, but he's going to live through this visit. which i dont know how much longer he's going to live. maybe its something he can live with for years. but a big, thick heart that doesn't pump correctly doesn't sound safe. doesn't sound good.
i've been dancing around in my dreams though. too busy to think. making cookies to keep my mind off of what is real and there. keeping myself busy or sleeping.
i fought with josh, last night. we fought a lot and i told him to fuck off. he was being an ass... not realizing that cancer is maybe. but he was being stubborn. and that was stupid.
i gotta go, my date is here. lots later.
oilandwater at 4:44 p.m.