2006-03-04
Fiesta. Forever.
I've never been so happy to have my family. To be an individual in a family of people who are people, and to know that everything matters but nothing matters. Even when I don't get the jokes on the cards, they'll still laugh and help me laugh. But when it comes down to things, all I can see are these lifetime people with other lifetime people. Believing in signs, with m-r-a-z blasting on the tv, knowing she was here and then there and with me and then not?
And its far too much for me to analyze, to break down, to stroke. The cold heart I held in my steady bitter hands for years. For a part of my life, she has sealed on to my heart and she is still there. I can't change that now, I can't change that with a cruel message.
And even if I asked the dearest of you to hold me and craddle me, nothing matches the tingle of joy that embraces my soul when she is here.
And to her I am just a person who
fell in her path. She picked up my
hitchhiking soul,
drove me to the next town
and kept on
driving.
oilandwater at 11:49 p.m.