2004-12-15
the magic pill
finally, gushing properly. i tried to sum up my life last night in two little pages of my very private except for george journal. i realized that i was much too tired and it wasn't possible. i woke up to myself contracting, and didn't know how to deal with the pain. i think the *special coating* on my vaginal wall has finally broken down, so there won't be any more pain.
i noticed, today, the curves on my stomach are very different, and that upper ab work is going to make me look like i have two sets of boobs pretty soon. track practices are nice and pretty laid back. and the exercise is relaxing. i like to run now, in circles upstairs, alone.
i can't say what i want, knowing everyone reads this. it isn't the same without privacy and security. i'm sorry that i haven't been writing in here as much. i'm upset also, that my review is probably going to suck ass because i haven't written as much now as i used to.
oilandwater at 12:19 p.m.