2005-12-12
Makes Me Wonder
They left me alone.
We sit here, unable to attain the era surrounding us. We will grow and return to what once was, and it will always be this - the sitting, the procrastinating, the waiting... and for what? It isn't nothing... but this is who we are. We are eating, waiting, sleeping, shitting people and we might find what will eat us alive, but in years we can look back and tell ourselves that we are these people and we will laugh.
And we will decide (or not) on our commitments and we will spring over our lives and still be living in the era that is upon us. The only difference being the commitments we've taken, the miles we've walked, the moments we've shared, the days we've spent - eating, waiting, sleeping and shitting.
I'd like to say that these are the moments that make me happy - when I can truly think about the rest of my life. I can consider my life in the future and what is probable to happen. It isn't about the money we make or the clothes we wear. Life, as I know it, is about happiness and responsibility.
While I may be living without fear, I have never been so afraid of what my life now will bring to me in years to come. I am not broken and I am singing. I am not broken and I am smiling. I am not broken and I am happy.
oilandwater at 1:21 p.m.