2004-02-17
reflecting in the middle of a fight
i'm so glad its easy to take your shirt off. i didnt want it to be seen like it was, but it was, of course! every girl wants to have a boy, but i'm not gonna do it like that.
and D always puts me in the mood. to be love and be loved in return, and its not going to happen with any of these boys. and i was thinking, does it ever? does it ever work out with best buds? the ones we've all known for so long?
with james, there was a girlfriend... with eric, there was my brother... with all the other boys... there was always something preventing it from moving on. and i have either partially given up (if all i see is the extremely bad habits of my parents and their relationship) and been dissappointed with my future, that has not even happend.
i'm gonna go read and get out of this mess
rosie
oilandwater at 9:06 a.m.