2004-02-29
a personal choice of reading more than writing? no.
"i'd like to thank the academy"
starting from scratch isn't as easy as it seems.
nothing is as easy as it seems. i don't mean to steal a wedding fantasy from anyone, but i don't want my wedding ring to be completely traditional and diamond. i want stone. pure and lovely. with some diamond. but price isn't the cost of love and it shouldn't be any kind of pricetag for me.
if anyone has seen the commercial of the man who keeps saying "if i make it, i do it" and he makes the shot. "if the cab comes i do it" and the cab pulls up. "if she's wearing red i do it" and she's wearing red and than he pulls out his engagement ring. that was strangely not random... but i felt like it usually would have been off topic. i can't really explain that, but just read on.
the day with the top down. i can't wait till tomorrow with the top down. i am looking forward to the ride home. i stalled the car in dunkin donuts on the hill because i had it in neutral for some reason. atleast it was night time and not busy. christine thought i was going to flip or something because she kept saying "its okay just calm down" and i did. thank god.
boy have things changed. i feel like it is a new slate. i've changed the slate, changed my reason, changed my rhyme. i feel that i've left a lot behind. in a good way, maybe. i've left my bad aura behind me. i've left bad decisions behind me. i've left all that behind.
i feel like i've forgotten so much though. i've forgotten how to do things and how to remember things most of all. i dont have lists anymore. i leave them behind me. its a blessing to have what i've got, but it sucks to forget it all
i love blake edwards. he really is great. all his movies, all his writings have been beautiful.
so i'm going to bed soon, although i'm sure it'll be a while. i want to read my book tomorrow. i'd like to find a nice place in the school to hide out. but there never seem to be any. i'm wearing martha stewart sweatshirt tomorrow (martha's vineyard black dog) because its so big and comfy. just jeans and my tshirt. i'm excited. for some reason. i am excited to go to school tomorrow
much love. much muchly.
oilandwater at 9:29 p.m.