2005-01-25
multi colored pens
It's never felt this new in the middle of the year. School is at an all time weird sensational feeling, but other things seem to be dwindling and swindling. I got that goofy feeling I got when I was in first grade and got to go see the astronomy show in the high school. I got that feeling that everything was so wonderful, even if it wasn't perfect.
And while I was squatting a whopping 135 lbs (well excuse me if it's not that much), I remembered making a comment that the squats really were making things difficult and I laughed because Ali made a comment about squeezing my butt and I thought he was saying "you squeezed your butt when you squatted" when really he said I SHOULD do that so I get more out of it... whatever, I laughed so hard though. And as perverse as we are with each other, it's all in good humor and sometimes it's the only time I ever get to really laugh... so I think it's worth it.
And everything feels so exhausting, especially the smell that reminds me of everything I've ever wanted. I am suddenly reminded of why this happened in the first place and I couldn't remember a reason so I just try to think that if this were it, than it will never be again and the thought is out of my mind and I am grateful.
I have a lot of homework tonight. Actually it isn't that much at all, but I really don't enjoy reading knowing that Rose is going to think that I didn't read because she doesn't think I respect her or something, and that does bother me a lot.
I want it to snow. A lot. Really fast. Really slippery. But not too slippery - just slippery enough for a cancellation.
oilandwater at 5:18 p.m.