2005-02-22
rain fall down
After such a long time, I realized that most of it is just filling in the gaps and knowing how to do it without hurting their feelings.
Today was the first time I really felt like I was in a relationship that I take too seriously - when he almost (i thought) crashed the car into another in front of us, and went speeding like an asshole. I guess just because I was scared for my life for a little instant, I went into freak-out-bitch-mode and decided to be angry! with him. After a few minutes of being hot and flustered I realized that there was too much silence.
I stuffed my brains with Johnny Rockets and all I ever want to eat for the rest of my life is celery and carrots and that's absolutely it.
I have to go return the movies that are 10 days late and slap that lady that was all over my ass.
There is red all over my room. And I think I love it. I just need to be inventive and come up with a way for more natural light to be inside my room. Anway. I'm so sick of the gross white and I realized when I took a picture that everything was so gray and nasty and nothing was clear and tropical. Obviously not tropical... but not boss at all.
ciao
oilandwater at 4:45 p.m.